The Hunting

Adeh, they should never have imposed the question. It's freaking 12 months dari sekarang okay. So maybe it is part of the learning process or the report that we are supposed to submit. Tetapi, it has been haunting me since. I'm gonna get back on the same route. Looking endlessly at different websites, trying to figure out what I really want versus what is actually out there for me. Come to think about it, what do I really wanna do 12 months from now? Will I stay and find a job here? Will I go home and be lost again?

Kenapa my group mates were talking about going to Europe and work for a few months and then travel pulak? Sooo lucky okay. I know, I know, I can do it too if I want. But I don't wanna be 30 and like still not getting a stable job. The thing is I like to think so far ahead, so I feel that I need to secure a stable job as soon as possible. Cuba chill skit...

Wait, there's 12 months to go. I don't have to think about it yet, right?

Ahhh still 'rumahsakit'

Cooking disaster

I'm officially a loser when it comes to making traditional Malay desserts/kuih

Susah okay. When it comes to making the kuih, it's not about following the exact same measurement because usually it doesn't really work. You have to 'just know' when it is 'just right'. Hence, I did a pretty bad karipap (curry puff) and i just messed up my fav kuih gelang/kuih keria/sweet potato doughnut. How hard can it be? Well first, I bought the wrong flour. I saw plain flour but my hand reached out to the self-raising flour instead. N tengah dok syok tambah tepung n checking the consistency, only then I realised that I have added too much, plus I glanced over the flour packaging and saw the word 'SELF-RAISING FLOUR' as if it was laughing at me for making a silly mistake. Again it's not about the measurement, it's about knowing when is right and getting the right ingredient too, dummy! It's never easy, especially when u r making it like once a year.

That's it I'm taking out the fillo pastry and am making spiced apple in a fillo cups. Yeap it's gonna be my second dessert for the day. I just wanna be happy okay!

the dessert is s'posed to look sth like this except it's filled with apple and not peaches and cranberries (in the picture)

I can see clearly now

How can you wake up in the morning and feel sooo angry at everything? How can you just be annoyed at the tiny little noise, the shriek of laughter, the increasing tone of others and you just wish you have a remote control to tone down all the noises that annoys the life of you and at the same time you wish that Johnny Nash (or should it be Bob Marley? oh i cant choose beween those 2) would be standing right in front of you and start serenading It's Gonna Be A Bright, Bright, Sun Shiny Day.

There should definitely be a chill pill.

Now sing it with me everyone!

Alternatively, I should get up, take a shower and get ready cos Zohor prayer is starting soon. Aaahhh a better alternative don't you think?

The change

Yeah I changed my blog layout like again. Haha. Something is not right with the last one cos every time when I try to open it, I was directed to some stupid websites like every few seconds. So I decided a change has to be made. I couldn't find the really great one yet but I'm settling with this one because it's so calming and easy on the eyes. The best thing is that blogger lets you keep your widgets now. I hate having to add all those widgets again especially my blog list. Hurgghh.

Can someone write a comment for me please. Haha. I just wanna make sure that it's working that's all.

Home Sweet Home

picture from Fred Barnes, photography genius

Sigh I dunno why lately I get so tired after dinner. All I could think about is laying on my comfy bed and just dozing off. It has really taken a toll on my new year's resolution to follow a strict rule of studying routine every day. Lawan je gangguan syaitan ni. Biasalah kalau nak buat something good mesti banyak halangan kan?

I am homesick. I hope I can save enough money to go home. Unless my new job has an extremely great project to do in July, I think I am seriously considering going home. I know I have a few months to go by then but who am I kidding? It got to the point where all I care about is finishing up my studies n get the hell out of here. That ain't good people. I have to cherish my experience here. I know I received a lot of visitors over summer and will be getting another flock of visitors again in May but they are actually making me feel worse. Haiseyman...