As I look back and ponder

Can't believe it's coming to an end. Just the thought of it makes my heart twist. I know it sounds cliche but I really can't believe that it's been two years. All the struggles and hiatus are finally over. Right now, the house is almost empty. We're sleeping on an air mattress, all clothes are packed in boxes except those i'm keeping for the next one month. I wish I could just stay longer, but my new life awaits me and I'm also looking forward to the next chapter.

There are just way too many things that I will miss, mostly the freedom to find your own dreams. I enjoy meeting new people. Although I didn't become as extroverted as I wanted to, I know it's a great lesson to learn and I need to constantly push myself to achieve great things from now on. It's okay if I falter, life is all about experience right?

I am going to miss out watching my adorable neighbours grow up to be amazing and free-spirited girls. I've learned so much from them and their parents. I realised that most important lesson to teach a child is to let them learn and experience life as a child. Shape their minds by valuing each skills and encouraging them to experience and experiment. I understand why the Australian/Westeners interact the way they do or even think the way they do. They have been encouraged to do so since young. I hope I don't forget to instill these spirit into my children when I have one. InsyaAllah

I will miss the freedom to do things on my own, make mistakes and learn how to be better. I admit I was sooo damn lazy the last semester. I just had to push myself constantly although I always ended up doing everything to the very very last minute. I realised that my brain can't take too much information in a day. I like to plan but I never follow through and almost all the time, I can't wait to be done with everything.huhu. That was how difficult the battle was for my last semester. I did make it through though. 3rd December will be the ultimate outcome of everything that I've worked for. InsyaAllah I will graduate

I hope when I board that plane to my home town, I would look back and be proud of myself. I made it through my master. I hope to be humble and kind. I hope it won't make me boastful. I hope I learn to acknowledge and respect people and I hope people won't misjudge me. The road I've taken IS for everybody, if you set your heart and mind into it. So I'm sure with determination, everyone can get through it. I'm really no better than anybody else. My passion is just different. I love to learn and that is all there is to it! In other words, I'm a nerd ;)